i've noticed something. its not hugely profound. but i realized im also looking in the windows of the independant coffee shops & bakeries around town for help wanted signs. and when i see the sign my heart skips a beat and i imagine going in and asking about the position. maybe i could just ask... they might need a little weekend help or.. ugh super early morning help maybe that would 'cure' my SAD that is already looming in my thoughts. of course i could always wait another year or two until audrey is in school full time