so the family doctor, she is GODSEND!!! she was so nice, she listened, was not condensending, it was so wonderful. she offered to get me started weaning off the 'bad' anti-depressant thats causing this hyper-anxiety, and on to an anti-anxiety med that i heard was better for women. she gave me the xanax for the my anxiety attacks & said it was obvious from the state i was in just in her office i needed it.
the stomach stuff she said was a little vauge and is probably from being so upset all the time and said to try something OTC, and if thats not helping ina week or two chart the pain and come back in. she said its not an ulcer b/c that pain would have be up in the middle of the night and it would hurt all the time.
the appointment was really good :) i even needed to take the xanax that evening after a whole bunch of stuff went wrong and it wasnt what i thought it would be like- i just gradually calmed down- it was like getting all goofy or anything.
last thing- my doctors office has stopped giving out samples, they decided that with all the new prescribtions and all the pressure from drug reps its a conflict of interests! i agree with that considering the way the drug market is these days and i think thats great :)