last night i dreamt that i left the kids in the house while i popped over to say hello to susan then after a minute or two i stepped outside to go back to my house and i realized i was actaully miles away from my house and i left the kids alone.
i probably dreamt this because admitted to leia that the alone time i crave can no longer be filled in 30-60 min chunks here and there but i would love a full day or two with husband or kids. of course that causes great guilt for wanting it and anxiety if it ever would be true. heck i can't leave the kids at the in-laws without a minor scuffle these days it seems and shawn has rarely ever watched his own kids all own his own.
since i woke up ive done three loads of laundry mopped the kicthen floor and scrubbed the front porch- am i trying to clean my conscience?