i think time closing in on the "christmas cry". it happens every year when i just lose it and cry for about 20 mins. there's the cummulation of the stress, seeing so much of the in-laws, so little of my own family, and missing my deceased brother edward. even though he died in novemeber it always hits me around christmas.
what makes it all worse is shawn is so accepting of my emotions, he keeps telling me its ok to be sad & cry if i need to. but im not even that in touch with these feelings and i dont want to cry.