BENEATH THIS CALM EXTERIOR...
i have been wrestling with a decision all day. i absolutly can not decide if i should go to maine. if it wasnt for the 12 hours in the car with two kids i would go. actaully thats a lie im also disappointed that i do most the travelling, and that i rarely get visits here. most the time this doesnt bother me but today its just eating at me gnawing... why should i make the effort when i doubt it will be returned? no one comes visits me for my birthday.
yes i know a visit to maine makes other people re-arrange their schedules and can be an inconvience but i guess i would like to be inconvienced too.
idont know what else to say, im already afraid i dug myself in a hole, but maybe what happens on the blog stays on the blog?